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A little over 2 years later, I look back. Laugh a little and realize that I'm still pretty fucked up in the brain pan. haha.Current Mood:  amused Current Music: "Computer Fans" by Apple |
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A bad dream that I can't wake up from. On this day, not unlike many others, I feel that things are not as they should be. I can't really exsplain this, nor do I fully understand it myself. It's just that the world around me is only there in patch of what I think is reality. On the other side I see my past everywhere I go, I can't escape it. I'm I really alive? Was I ever really alive? Why do I have these constent feels of unrest, decomfort, and an ever growing belief that this world is false. When I sleep I'm awake and when I'm awake I feel like I'm sleeping. So how am I really to know what is the real. I thought that a change of location would bring about an upset in everything I wanted to do with my life, a sort of ge the ball rolling. This has not occured to my satisfaction. School is pounding in my brain all the time and well I'm more relaxed and healthy then I've been in a long time, I can't seem to reach in to my pool of lies and dreams to seek out that which is already there but need to be uncovered. Those of you who don't know of Michelangelo would not understand that, but what it means is that my ablitty to see whats on the page is on the fritts right now.
Over my desk hangs a blank canves, it is when I can fill this that my life will finally be on the track that I wish it too be. Till then I shall sit and meditate on myself and the world around me, and wait as I always have been for her to call.Current Music: "Aduie" by the Seatbelts |
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Dec. 10th, 2006 @ 05:00 am
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This is bullshit, i just got reemed for READING. Really what the fuck? Games I get, sleeping I get....but fucking reading!! BULLSHIT....i hate her.... |
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Oct. 22nd, 2006 @ 04:49 pm
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I miss my old friends...maybe I ran away from high school to fast. |
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BOOTY CALL! (THIS IS JUST A GAME)Please fill out the below application if you want to be a booty call for this person.
RE-POST IF U WANNA SEE WHO WANTS TO BE YOUR BOOTY CALL!
Name: ___________________
Age: ____________________
Phone: ___________
Occupation: ____________________
Height______
Married(Y/N)__ Single(Y/N)___ Other_________
Sexual Orientation: __________
How often do u wanna have sex?(check appropriate answer)
Daily__ Weekly__ Monthly__ As much as possible_
How long can u last? (check appropriate answer)
1min ___ 15min__ 30min__ 1hr__ all nite___
Do u like Giving oral sex? (Y/N)___
Do u like Get oral sex? (Y/N)___
What could you do for me that no one else could?:
Which do u prefer? (check appropriate box)
One on one__ Doubles__ Group___
While having sex, what do u do? (place "X" in all appropriate boxes)
Faint__
Cry__
Moan__
Wiggle__
Twist__
Jerk about__
Pant__
Sweat___
Scream__
Hum__
Whistle__
Just lie there__
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What is ur preferred pace? (place "X" in appropriate spaces)
Slow__ Fast__ Very fast__ Rigorous___
Do you like rough sex?
No__ Sometimes__ Always__
Do you like to talk dirty?
No__ Sometimes__ Always__
When is the best time to reach u? (place "X" in appropriate spaces)
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Oct. 22nd, 2006 @ 01:47 pm
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I call for a vote, should I get my hair highlighted like it once was thanks to Stephanie, Erin, and Amanada I do believe. Anyway yes should I get my hair highlighted again is the question being put to task.
Oct. 19th, 2006 @ 04:11 pm
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| » A deep moment in time at 20. |
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As I stand on the edge of the abyss, I look out and see into the nothing that stand before me. I am not scared, instead I feel a warming sense of hope welling in my chest. In that nothingness beyond me there are endless possibillities. I now have my whole life ahead of me, things are only now just begining.
Oct. 8th, 2006 @ 08:57 pm
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| » the bitch is back |
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well, suprise suprise, my mother has been back for less then 10 minutes and I've already had 3 fights with her...I need to get the fuck out of here.
Sep. 26th, 2006 @ 08:48 pm
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It's cold and lonley here...I need to turn the music up more. I have my fingureless gloves back, is good.
Sep. 25th, 2006 @ 09:29 pm
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| » back in the saddle again |
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Eh, yeah I'm sick, but getting over it. My mothers been gone for the last 4 days and I can't tell you how much better life is around here without her, it makes me somewhat sad to say that because really who should be able to say that there life is better without their mother around. And I just found out she's suppost to be back tomorrow, something about taking a bus back.....damn it. Well I've been enojoying being at work lightly, don't really know why I just do. School is mostly boaring and irritating I glad that it's only a 4 day school week for me. I don't think theres really much else I have to say at this time, maybe later though.
Sep. 21st, 2006 @ 07:57 pm
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| » No Really |
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Ok so i guess if theres anything you wanna get off your chest, heres a few chances to do it! Aw dont worry i pinky promise not to give u hell about anything u write! Just be honest ;) i promise not to say anything about any of your answers
1) Do you like me as a friend?
2) Do you love me?
3) Do you have a crush on me?
4) Whats one good thing about me?
5) Is there anything you want to tell me?
6) If you had one wish for me, what would it be?
7) Whats your best memory of me?
8) Have I ever done anything nice for you? is so what?
9) Have I ever affected your life for the good?
10) Would you kiss me?
11) Would you go out with me?
12) Has there ever been a time you wanted to kiss me and didn't?
13) On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the sexiest), what would you rate me as?
14) Is there anything you'd like to change about our relationship?
15) What are 3 words that you would use to best describe me?
16) What would you change about me on the inside?
17)What would you change about me physically?
18) Will you post this so i can do it for you?
Sep. 12th, 2006 @ 01:19 am
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emo moment. done.
Sep. 12th, 2006 @ 01:11 am
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Motion City Bitches.
Aug. 31st, 2006 @ 03:18 pm
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Which KH2 Main Character are you like? Find out Here!</center>
Aug. 9th, 2006 @ 03:20 pm
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| » Lost Again |
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I'm lost...I don't know what I'm doing. I feel alone and cold. Things are wrong, I just don't know how to change them right now. Left behind in a haze holding the end of a cut rope. The hate and anger build inside of me taiting the world I see, things are not as they seem.
Aug. 6th, 2006 @ 02:29 pm
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| » MOTHER FUCKERS NOT AGAIN.12 |
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I am REALLY FUCKING TIRED of hearing "NOW PLAYING IN SELECT CITY." Why is LANSING NEVER A FUCKING "SELECT CITY" !!!!! AARRRRRGGGGG!!
Jul. 14th, 2006 @ 08:49 pm
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| Your 2005 Song Is | 
Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz
"Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me."
In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain. |
Jun. 22nd, 2006 @ 02:38 pm
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| » w00t for Gambit |
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 | You scored as Gambit. Gambit is another loner character. He loves Rogue. He has a very cool deboner personality. He's done things in his past that he's not proud of but he atones for his actions by fighting for peace with the X-Men. His weapon of choice is the playing card. Powers: Charges objects with kinetic energy by touching them, then they explode like grenades.
Wolverine | | 100% | Gambit | | 100% | Colossus | | 80% | Iceman | | 80% | Nightcrawler | | 80% | Rogue | | 75% | Emma Frost | | 65% | Beast | | 50% | Storm | | 50% | Jean Grey | | 45% | Cyclops | | 40% | </td>
Most Comprehensive X-Men Personality Quiz 2.0
created with QuizFarm.com |
May. 31st, 2006 @ 10:25 pm
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I am a whore and WoW is my crack.
May. 23rd, 2006 @ 11:38 am
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